From your own picture you look like somebody who is just too stressed out. I'm guessing you live in a city in America and you just never get out of this city and never see the countryside. Where I live I can walk for just two minutes, and that's it, I'm out of town completely and I'm in the country away from everything.
The catfight fetish!? It's not actually a healthy sexual fetish. It's sadistic. It's masochistic. It's sado-masochistic. Have you ever been punched twenty times in the face? It's not nice. It's frightening, painful, humiliating. Fighting is a horrible experience, both to watch and to participate in. It may well be our Cetshwayo but it's not a good and healthy one. Force yourself to take a break now from this site, all other catfight sites, and all catfight videos. It will do you the world of good.
You can return, but just once a week only. Daily visits are a sign of how desperate and unhappy you really are. In a previous posting you admit to drug taking but that's no different to me when I now drink nigh on every day. Alcoholism can not be too far away now. You remind me too much of myself with your desire for this fetish and your substance abuse. My own life is a mess and I just don't know what to do. A break from this unhealthy fetish, a break from drinking, must do me good.
Take a break and think about your future.