I'm pacing back and forth in the Countdown's annexed locker room. I can't seem to stop pacing these days, like a tiger waiting for a feeding time that never comes. Red's stop casting those sullen deep South Faulkner stares at me, at least, but that's mostly because he's watching Gems pound the shit out of the thing that's pretending to be Rowan. I tighten my fists as I see that moment of confusion flash across Gemma's pretty face - that moment of Why isn't this working quickly buried in her usual wash of bravado and arrogance. My knuckles crackle, still wrapped in bloodied tape since I haven't bothered to go to the trainer to get them undone yet. I wanna punch something but there's nothing in here to punch safely, so I snatch the Red Queen up and sit down in a sudden rush.
Dropping into the IKEA chair hard enough to send it lightly crashing into the lockers, I flicker my wide dark eyes at you, watching the big monitor, and catch you looking at me. We don't agree on a lot, of late, but we agree on one thing. No matter how happy Red might be to see it live and in color, this ain't right. Except you probably wouldn't say "ain't".
When Megan picked Rowan as the bearer of our message to FTW, I learned what I could of her on short notice. Mostly this involved matches, culled from various locales, and in various stages of her career. Then I met the woman. I was ill-prepared for what I found. Chaos. Madness. Watching her in the ring was an interesting study in contrasts. In similiarities as well. While "Aika" wrestled little enough like Rowan Chance, I reasoned that even if she had in the depths of her insanity produced another personality, it was still the same body. You could see it in the subtle movements. Where she rested her hands. How she took a punch.
Also, I've seen any number of one-sided beatdowns before. I've engaged in a few myself. This was...not one of those. For all that Gemma has dominated the offence thus far, somehow I don't feel like she's winning. I glance to the side to look askance at you. Seeing you look back at me, I cannot stop my jawline from tightening. It would be counterproductive to say so aloud, but I can't help blaming you for this. Blaming you for unleashing madness upon my plans.
We've been looking each other in the face and planning to hurt each other since we first met in the ass end of nowhere, which happens to be in northern California. I don't wanna say we can read each other like books, because I'm cut-up bits of a bunch of different gritty 80s gdaphic novels pasted into a Kenneth Anger Trapper Keeper, and you're one of those books that has words that change when you stare at them and the cover is made of human skin. Neither of us is safe or sane to read. But we do have tells - mine are open, brash, and explosive. If I draw a bad hand in poker, I accuse the dealer of being a cheating fuck, threaten him with a broken bottle, then throw the cards down and declare that the game sucks anyway and try to rally a game of naked Twister. You're a BIT more subtle.
But you have your giveaways, and the way you tighten up, just a little, when your eyes click with mine speaks volumes. I squeeze the handle of the Red Queen until the tape creaks on the old battered varnished wood, resting her weighted head on the ground and watching with wide, intent eyes. I shudder a little bit as Gemma keeps pounding. She KNOWS something is wrong, but if there's someone on this fucking planet more stubborn than me, it's Gemma Rox. She doesn't try to figure anything out, doesn't try to trick the creature with her into revealing herself, doesn't try for a countout, doesn't do anything but bore into her like a drill. Gemma could've dug the fucking Chunnel if they'd told her that Calais said she looks fat in her miniskirt.
(She doesn't. I picked that miniskirt for her. It makes her ass look FANTASTIC.) But Row- Aika's not playing by any of the rules we play by. Wrestle long enough, and you'll meet wrestlers who are a little ... other-driven. They're more common in Japan, but you seem them in Germany, Britain, and famously here in the States when Mark Calloway realized he'd been a Dead Man all along. Aika's driven by something bigger than fame and darker than revenge. And Gemma doesn't see it. She just sees something she thinks she can lower her head and ram through. I look back at the door before I can stop myself, judging the distance if I have to try to sprint out of here. Red, not noticing a damn drop of the tension thanks the Southern Comfort he's working, laughs.
"Gemma's POUNDIN' that bitch!"
I glance to my side in Red's direction. Do his knuckles look a little white on that bottle? Hard to say. Red could be trying to project unfelt optimism, or he could really not have noticed that the same person who put his arm in a bad way mere days ago is doing this intentionally. He's not a foolish man, but he's very...direct.
He's also not my biggest problem, at the moment. Not in the top five, in truth. I saw that head-turn from you. "No," I say flatly, turning back to the monitor I'd pilfered from the soundstage. "You'll get your chance. Not tonight, though."
I react to a flat "No" like a cat reacts to a faceful of cold water. My shoulders roll and my back tenses up, and my lips draw back from my teeth, just a little. I tense my grip on the weighted mallet in my hands and think for just a moment of the slapped look of bottomless shock that smug cxnt Ursula had painted on her cold high cheekboned face, realizing that the snapping sound she'd heard was, in fact, in her back, and her wrestling career had ended with a sound like a breaking clothespin. Just for a moment, though. I thump the handle against the floor in a soft rhythm - "Shave and a Haircut" - and take a couple of long, slow prana breaths.
"She's gonna be hurt, Calli," I say as calmly as I can manage. In my current mood, that sounds like someone talking through a mouthful of blood and clenched teeth. "And I - "- know you don't care ... I stop THAT line of talk right away, because you'll just get clipped and chill and Red will get awkward and we'll all be stuck here not looking at each other. "I think that would be harmful for our plans. Red's already sore and if Gemma's hurt too then I can't hold off Lisa and Lenny and Spanky the Bombshell by myself if they come after you." There. I'll try appealing ot your sense of self-preservaton. Cunning, Megan. My knuckles creak on the haft of the Red Queen as I heft it, unawares, and thump it down again.
'And this is why I do the strategizing,' I think to myself as you attempt to rationalise trying to do what you want as beneficial to me. This is an inaugural title match. If one of the blondetards attacks me and the ref DQs my Mediterranean opponent, I'm champ. All the better if the fans find me undeserving of the victory. None of THAT needs to be said aloud, of course. "Don't count Gemma out," I say. "Even if this rope-a-dope, it takes an AWFUL long while to make that little hellion punch herself out." I frown. That's plain truth, but it's not precisely what needs to be said. "Anyway, Gemma's not really that crucial to our plans." Red won't care for that comment, but I've already got strings attached to him through other means...
"Gemma won't punch herself out, because Aika is gonna fuckin' BREAK her before that," I growl back. I try to keep my hackles down but that last little line got them right up. Almost like you were TRYING to piss me off - but that'd be fucking stupid when I'm sitting here with a hammer. "Red. RED." I jab the back of his chair and have to endure his face when he turns to face - that mix of disappointment and anger and pain is hard to bear on a friend, and now he's added to it a healthy dash of not-wanting-to-get-involved like so many people do when they hear us arguing. "You were fuckin' READY to face Rowan, right?" "I ..." he hesitates, glancing from you to me, and takes a long drink of iced SoCo and Coke with his good hand. "...I thought I was."
I jab the head of the mallet at Red, holding it just beneath the weighted head like a thunder god using a hammer as a lecture pointer. "He has BROKEN her before. He has broken Rowan down inta fuckin' PIECES. I was THERE. I fuckin' swept them up." I growl. "An' she DISASSEMBLED him." That makes Red wince, and it hurts to do that to him, but I keep my eyes on you. "Roxxy's crossed with Rowan four, mebbe five times. Gems doesn't get her shit out West that much, 'cept ta -" - fuck me - "- fight me. She doesn't know what she's in for. An' you KNOW how she gets when she's in a fuckin' hold." The bitch has less give in her than a fucking iron skillet.
I get up in a rush, shoving the chair back hard enough to knock it off its casters with a crash, and stalk to the monitor, jabbing the Red Queen into it hard enough to rock the solid state beast, and I turn to face you, pointing at where Aika is moving like a broken puppet, like a parody of life. "She's gonna get caught, she's not gonna give, an' she's gonna get her fuckin' arm torn off. An' If she's not fuckin' important to YOUR plans, she's very fuckin' important to ME." I finish, flushed with fury, my weary muscles jumping in my sweat-chilled ring gear.
I look in your direction, turning my head slowly. "If she does, it will be the price she pays for failure," I say, fixing you with my iciest blue-eyed stare. "YOUR price is to sit here and see what you've wrought. If you can't bear to watch the match, look at Red, instead." Red gives me a 'leave-me-the-fuck-outta-this' look in response to that comment. I stand up, moving calmly towards the locker room door, turning to lean my back up against it. "Now as I said, you will get your hands on her. But Not. To. Night." This is risky. It could push you too far. But it could also solve two problems at once. Worth a toss of the dice.
There's a long, long moment of tension that's as tangible as a plucked violin string, humming desperately between two unrelenting grips. My eyes narrow furiously and I wrap my left around the hammer in my hand as my right tightens until there's small icy crack of one short squared fingernail splintering against my taped palm. My tendons suddenly ease and I let out a long, slow breath, and turn my back to you to take a deliberate seat on the bench, watching the monitor. My eyes stay locked on the dark things there, and when I speak, my voice is almost as clipped and icy as yours, which is never, ever a good sign with me. "I'll watch the fucking match. But if this goes wrong, and she gets hurt," I grit my teeth so hard I can hear them almost cracking, and shake my head with a sharp snap to break my own tension. "... then I am goin' out there to fuck that crazy masked cxnt up."
"And if you get in my fucking way one more time, Quinn, then YOUR price is gonna be a prolonged fucking hospital stay." Not the best words way to ease the tension. Red mutters something about a refill and gets up, putting as much distance between himself and us as he can, but the room is really not very big.
And it feels fucking smaller all the time.