I can’t say I speak for all, but to me losing by nature is in of itself the worse, we all go into a fight already accepting sub consciously that it is a chance you will lose, let’s face facts you only have a 50/50 shot in a fight, to lose as my husband watches it takes a lot out of your self pride, all the supportive praise can’t replace the gut blow to confidence and pride, I had 3 “major” cat fights with others that my husband saw till the end that lost in, it was the worse feeling having to look at the bitch who won , sitting on you taunting you as she wears her proud gleeful smile and adds whatever after fight little extra torment as tears and anger and frustration race through you, then turn your head or get up and look over and see your mans face, though he may truly not think it or even feel it the eyes say it all, I saw disappojntment, fear, frustration, pity, and lastly that soft quiet “ nurturing “ hug back patting kiss and the attempted pep talk “ if she didn’t kick you had her or whatever add in was said to make it seem like I didn’t lose cause I lost it was some other force of nature , guys trust me when I tell you no amount of flowers, holding or endearment you say after works, there is a part of us broken internally, as I have said in similar questions asked , just like when we have to accept there is no alternative but to fight, our emotions cause a bevy of them to race through us at one time at light speed, we all go in knowing both of us are going to get hurt , face the degraded look of our top torn open and maybe end up topless or close to it and more, but to go through it all then see and feel that disappojntment it will flip in some cases a switch, 1 side you wanna get her off yourself jump up and unleash on her again from the purest anger and hate, on the other side you just wanna get home away from the scene wash it off you and sit alone with thoughts, or tears. As for The Who? 2 of the 3 I lost we’re the same girl, it wasn’t “over my man” it was more a personality/jealousy/ work clash that just boiled more and more till she took it the ultimate level, in our first go, silly as it sounds it was a dead even fight and I can say now I think I was winning or at the least stayed in it till either someone stopped us or she was gonna say F you and “live to fight another day” approach, just my feeling but as it got there she turned the tide by using a perfect excited move of hair, hip check and got on top of me, she one arm pinned under leg and proceeded to bash my head on ground by hair a few times hard enough it made me dazed and my fight back mode was paused if you will as I was stunned in pain my top was ripped exposing my bra where she leaned down and sank teeth in my breast, no blood was drawn but it may have been, the now feint Mark still shows a bit, so the combined attack I screamed my surrender before I suffered more biting or claws , she I fought again this time it was my doing to call her out, it was every bit the fight the first was but this time I was in such a zone the yelling of fight get her so became muffled as if I went deaf, my eyes seem to black out everything but her, and I used every personal option in my Arsenal to be the one walking from it head high, I used hair, punch to jaw, claws yo face and instead of a return bite I was on her back and the slammed head to ground was her face , I cut her forehead and nose open, I got pulled off by my arm( still no idea by who) and as she got up I broke her nose with a fist to the face, as mad as I was and at the time happy I felt this sudden OMG fear that I thought I killed her, it sounds stupid but when your in that beast rage it’s like you transform from a woman in a fight to actually feeling you will kill, oddly it is a real emotion in the fight flight of seratonin released or endorphins (not sure which brain chem it is) but apart from taking back what I felt was sub conciously stripped from me I felt I got a new respect from my hubby and she quit the job we were at never to return, the other fight was from a girl who fought like a pro boxer I mean her fists were fast and landed like a sock of coins, I hit her back and landed my share but honestly it felt like I was fighting 3 chicks instead of 1, it was a quicker fight and after I was down 2 times and on the second getting hit while seeing stars 2 guys pulled her off me.
Those were all “spontaneous unplanned “ as far as my irl rules competition matches go I win more than I lose but even though it’s considered “friendly competition” (there’s a contradicting term) lol, it sucks in every form and same level to have to look my guy in the eye after I lose, I guess the difference is cause the temperament we enter into is a million times less heated blood boiling ready to use anything or do anything to win , is now turned into a this is a sport, be it personal “taboo” to those who dont understand why 2 women would agree to fight do it, or don’t see the inner thrill of competition cause the close minded society majority says that’s wrong , I truly believe MMA, and acceptance of female boxing has started to pry the taboo outlook away and as more women train as part of workout its being accepted more again my opinion. As far as accomplish ? Anything anyone sets out do and comes out succeeding has accomplished it, so winning a real fight for what ever reason it started or winning cause you do it on the hobby/ sport level like rule arranged cat, wrestling, catty wrestle, sub and list of other ways if you compete the wins an accomplishment , and if you think deeper a loss can be as well cause you took on a fear and or challenge and by finishing it win or lose you win inwardly by doing it . Sorry if it was to long anc hope I answered what you sought to hear
